Two week wait

The ‘two-week wait’ – The 3 things I did to get through it…

Anyone who has gone through the two-week wait will tell you that these 336 hours are nothing short of excruciating. For those not familiar with the phrase, the #twoweekwait is the window between ovulation and your expected period. It’s the time when all the Am-I-pregnant anxiety, worry and frustration emerges! During this time, you can’t stop living your ‘normal’ life but at the same time you don’t want to risk a negative impact on what could be happening inside you. The other challenge, I found, is that I wanted to appear like there was nothing unusual happening in my life. Whilst in actual fact there was potentially something VERY unusual happening in my life! As usual, I decided the best way to cope whilst #ttc (trying to conceive) was to make a plan…

  1. Study the science

For me, gathering data, knowledge and key facts helped me to stay calmer and more focused. Having a bit more of an understanding about what was hopefully happening inside me reminded me just how amazing the human body is. 

First things first, in order for the magic to start to happen one of the sperm needs to meet with my one ‘good egg’. Just meeting up however is not enough, this one sperm needs to then be tough enough to penetrate the outer layer of the egg for fertilisation to occur.

The beauty of IUI is that I got the chance to pick the ‘perfect day’ for the sperm and egg to meet up. Plus, I have selected some fast, plentiful sperm. I had also done everything I could think of to try and minimise the effect of my ‘geriatric’ status (over 35) on the outcome. I had been eating healthier (plenty of eggs, spinach, kale and oranges have been consumed in preparation) and drinking minimal alcohol for the last 6 months (with the exception of 4 days in Ibiza – what goes on tour stays on tour and all that!)

Once the egg has been fertilised there is a period of time when it becomes an actively dividing mass of cells and this mass of cells needs to implant into the lining of the uterus. Unfortunately, at this stage the odds are also stacked against me as I learn that this happens only 40% of the time. However, we must hope for the best! When it is successful, implantation occurs roughly 4-6 days after fertilisation. The mass of cells is called a blastocyst, and it is now that the cells need to get ‘comfy’ in the uterine lining. At this stage the body starts to secrete the pregnancy hormone ‘human chorionic gonadotrophin’ (hCG). This hormone signals to the body not to menstruate and this keeps the blastocyst safely inside.

hCG can be detected in the blood as early as 6-8 days after ovulation, but it takes higher concentrations to be detectable in urine. Scientifically, therefore, it is advised to hold out and wait the full 14 days before carrying out your first pee-on-a-stick style pregnancy test. Armed with all the knowledge, I decided I wouldn’t take a test too early as I knew my body would be trying to do the right thing. My job, therefore, was to simply trust it and try and stay as calm and happy as I could…

2. Act normal

Wow, well this one was going to be tough. What on earth is ‘normal’?! For all of you that have been following my blog you may have noticed that I have not exactly followed ‘the norm’ up to this stage. In this case “normal” is carrying on with life. One foot in front of the other, breathe in, breathe out and, failing all else, eat some more eggs?!

Thankfully I had a busy two weeks coming up. Christmas plans were in full swing in both my contracting world and in my own business. I had colour and style consultations to carry out and personal shopping clients to see. Luckily for me it was the sort of busy that was under control and not completely manic. So rather than spending endless hours pondering on all the possible “what ifs” I only had time to allow myself 10-15 minutes a day to let my mind race and then I was back to reality and getting stuff done.

Christmas market ready

3. Be kind

This final one I think is absolutely essential; We’re all familiar with the saying ‘in a world where you can be anything be kind’. I truly believe kindness starts with being kind to ourselves.

I was kind to my body. I decided that as I might be pregnant I would eat and drink as if I was pregnant. Probably not entirely essential but my thinking was that laying off the steak tartare, shark and champagne for breakfast wouldn’t do me any harm!

I was kind to my mind. I switched my weekly yoga class for a mediation evening at home. Again, probably not necessary but for me I decided that I would rather stay home, sit on the floor in my living room, chant the Gayatri Mantra and focus on breathing.

Finally I decided to surround myself with love. As a single woman this was, and still, continues to be absolutely essential. I am very much a people person; therefore, I need to see, talk to and be with people to feel at my happiest. In these two weeks I made sure that I saw some of my best people and did lovely things with them; went to the cinema, had afternoon tea and treated myself to a facial.

Test day finally arrives…

After a busy weekend spent in Stone, Staffordshire running a stall at a Christmas market organised by my cousin Zoe. We had decided some months before, that we would both take the Monday off and spend the morning together before I made my way back home. As the weekend got closer, I had realised what I could do on this day…

Zoe and I have quite a few family traits in common – we love a good plan and we expect others to follow it. We also like to think we are level-headed and rational however we are, in fact, very emotional beings. When on the Saturday I suddenly felt nauseous, we were both on the edge, could I really be pregnant?!

Monday morning, I get up early and pee on another stick…

Nothing – no lines. Oh my goodness, what does this even mean?! Even more infuriatingly I have forgotten to pack the collection of pregnancy tests I had bought. So, into the car for a quick dash to the supermarket to buy a whole load more. And  after a restorative cup of tea I gather myself together enough to try again…

Zoe and I stand and watch as the seconds count down and after the longest 2 minutes of my life I go back into the bathroom to look at the display…

I honestly can’t believe it. The rush of emotions is intense! I am obviously excited and relieved, however I also feel scared, and guilty, that it has worked first time. Little did I know that this was just the start of a period of my life where the term rollercoaster will not even go part of the way to describe the waves of emotions that I will experience over the next year…

2 thoughts on “The ‘two-week wait’ – The 3 things I did to get through it…

  1. Thank you so much for this. Just the idea of falling pregnant this time around gives me butterflies, I so hope it happens this month! The TWW is awful, but I’m so happy it turned out well for you! Congrats xx

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